view member journals

Search All Journals

View users with: Most entries, Most viewed, Most commented

Most popular tags: Zdigitizing(99), Travel(41), education(40), LOVE(40), writing(32), ...more

You searched for: Age: less than 18

nava 33, Male, California, USA - 26 entries

Dec 2006
3:53 AM PDT

People use excuses to get out of bad situations also some peope won't care what you have to say or done.This is a great way to actually inspirate someone just writing in my journal.

Add comment

View all posts

buttercup68 57, Female, Canada - 15 entries

Dec 2006
3:33 PM MST

Boxing day ! The crowd and the traffic is horrible. I would have loved to go bargain hunting but I knew I need to spare my credit card this time. I don't need new clothes or any electronics. Don't need it. Want it, yes ! Of course. Who doesn't want to throw out my old TV and replace it with a 42" plasma and install a sensoround sound system ?? Or go splurge on new clothes and accessories ?? Gotta wake up. This lifestyle I cannot afford. Am a single mom. But before I wallow in self-pity, I'd better remember and count all my blessings. There's millions of people like me who eek out a living ... but only a few who feels so blessed much much more than millionaires. That feels better.

Add comment

View all posts

blue4u 48, Female, Louisiana, USA - 6 entries

Dec 2006
6:20 PM EDT

today was such a long dull day ,thank god every day isnt the same.life is unpredictable some good some bad.if you was like me it would be80% bad . I know I,m a good person but why was I dealt the hand I was???????? IS there really a reason for EVERYTHING???? all I really want is just to be an average person with an average life but I guess then I would want to be an unaverage person running buck wild without a care in the world

Add comment

View all posts

uns3ttl3d 38, Female, New York, USA - 57 entries

Dec 2006
5:35 PM EDT

What is a true fact? WHen you come to think of it there is a certain amount of truth to everything. Same thing goes opposite way. THere is always something there to deceive you. It's somewhat like a ratio. And these all abide to every 'known fact' to man. I think God's greatest gift to mankind is the ability to think and to question. WHy go along with what the rest of the world is thinking and doing without any questioning to yourself as to why you are doing everything in a set and standard way without thinking it through your own way first? Always thinking...always questioning. It certainly drives me to a point of some degree of insanity but that's what makes me who i am. I think to a degree me intelligence and ability to question has been channeled into the wrong direction and all the energy has gone stale to the point i end up at dead ends everywhere i go. but i will keep fighting. i will keep questioning. i feel like everything simple in life is a metaphor for something much greater...everything takes place in patterns. everything takes place in extracted patterns, so complex and so commonly occuring to the point we just ignore it and it goes by and dies. we need to grasp that opportunity to sit there and think what nobody else has ever thought of before. we need to cease it and make meaning of it, because who else will? we are given the ability to be different. different in many many ways. some subtle differences...others much larger. we experience everything differently from one another. we are all so similar but completely different from one another, so why bother to conform into the identity and ideas of others when you are destined to become someone and something else? perhaps destiny doesnt exist. that is because one, for the most part, is in charge of their own destiny. man creates his own destiny. sure there are a given amount of circumstances that may perhaps interfere with that, but one must live their own destiny. not the destiny of others. embrace your differences. embrace them because that is who YOU are and no one else can take that from you. And so this is why i believe it is best to obliterate one's inhibitions. To never commit to one mindset and always remain open minded. To never allow oneself to censor one's thoughts. Denial and restraint only keep us from confronting the truth. THe truth of what, i do not know. Just the one and single truth that deep down in the backs of our minds and hearts and souls that we are dying to know. The world that lies beyond the physical...whether it exists or not. Whether you abide by a certain religion in which you found great comfort to rely on, as if it were some kind of crutch to keep you from questioning. From being cynical. See, i dont understand why being cynical and negative is so bad because it, at least for me, keeps me thinking more about 'facts' and knowledge and truth i come up with based upon my own life and my own mind and my own thoughts, not those of others. It's called logic. It's called one's own set of beliefs derived from who they are, not what others believe. I am a cynic. I am a constant questioner. I am null, i am void, i am weird. I dont get why people are so offended if they are ever labeled with the term 'weird'. Id rather be myself then be 'normal'-code-following what everyone else believes and mimicking all their actions instead of being my own true self. Essentially being labeled 'weird', even though labels and generalizations and categorizing a unique individual into a dumbed down subject is something of which i am strongly opposed, is something that one should embrace openly because all it really means is that you are being yourself. You are doing things your way. You are living your life and thinking with your own mind. And as for my view of emotions...having been a highly emotionally sensitive person my entire life all i can say is that the improper amount of emotions usually if not always ends up in depression. Emotions are just the "hearts" defense mechanism. They tell you how you yourself can relate and trust other people, other things, insludimng yourself. but there is one major drawback. all emotions, or at least most, are irrational. they keep you from thinking realisticly. they keep you from achieving things. they hold you back. they are rooted from irrationality. Irrationaly took my brother's life, and it continually threatens my own. Therefore i have come to the conclusion that, for my own sake, i will be as emotionless as i can. i will become a brick wall. i will be a zombie. i will not care. i will not cry. i will only think with all emotions set aside. i want the raw truth. i just want the fucking raw truth. behind existence and behind all things. people and relationships tend to interfere. sure i am about to drive myself to the point of insanity...but i'd rather go this route that live s predestined life of a 'normal' person. its just not for me, you see? it's just not for me. i just want to be free.

Add comment

View all posts

mommy 36, Female, New York, USA - 20 entries

Dec 2006
5:22 AM EDT

Merry X-Mas... Sorry about not writting on Christmas... SO how is everyone? how was everyone's christmas? mine was okay. what what did everyone get? so it their anything new? well that's all i can think on right now, so ttyl... With Love, Krysta

Add comment

View all posts

slickboy 37, Male, California, USA - 20 entries

Dec 2006
4:54 PM EDT

Many people who believe that their life is uneventful and nobody would be interested in them is mostlu untrue. Almost every person who helped somedody in their life or done something appreciative are mostly the people who has been positively in peoples life. If a person have done things to benefit another person and kept in in journals on what they have done it is an achivement but it shows greed toward the person, ang he or she is helping peole to get the benefit that he has done something in your life. For example my father have been to many countries around the world. He had helped individual people and he doesn't brag about it because he knows in moral wsense that he is not the type of person. He is experience with many people and I have beeen proud of him very much because he does the positive in peoples life and shows accomplishment.

Add comment

View all posts

charlax 71, Male, Arizona, USA - 744 entries

Dec 2006
1:10 AM MST

they have a letter in the SMITHSOAEOAN with the signature of George Washington

Add comment

View all posts

charlax 71, Male, Arizona, USA - 744 entries

Dec 2006
1:07 AM MST

eye hope there is lots of food in heaven too

Add comment

View all posts

AguilarBaby 47, Female, Washington, USA - 50 entries

Dec 2006
12:03 PM PST

Hi Baby....today has been some what a "rough" day. I think you are growing and I am feeling it. I was getting all sorts of pains today in my back and in my belly and then I was just way too tired and had to come home and go to sleep and I just was not feeling good. But it is nothing to worry about I am sure b/c this is what to expect with you and I knew that it was not going to be easy. Well your Aunt Roxane and Uncle Ruben are having a Boy! They found out today. We are real excited for them however they really wanted a girl b/c you see they only have boys in between the both of them and they wanted to break that cycle but it did not seem to work so they are going to add one more boy to the family. Well we hope that you are a boy but to be perfectly honest I just want you to be a happy, healthy baby and I am sure you are. I had to go to work today and your Dad did not so I am tired and I am going to feed us and then go to bed. You know I love you and I will talk to you later. We love you always, Mom & Dad

Add comment

View all posts

uns3ttl3d 38, Female, New York, USA - 57 entries

Dec 2006
2:22 AM EDT

god, i am so sick of forcing myself through the motions of having to accomodate to the consideration of other people. i feel sick. i cant stand being in my own skin half of the time, and the energy alone put toward the effort of not allowing myself to get upset or depressed over the fact that i fucking hate myself and i hate my life is just overwhelming to the point i just want to scream FUCK IT. i am just so pissed. i just want to go back to new york. i am sick of being in taiwan. i cant really speak to anyone and im gaining so much wait here becuase there is nothing to do but sulk in silence and idleness and EAT EAT EAT because of boredom and nicotine withdrawal. and it sucks hardcore. i hate it. i cant stand life right now. im getting this ancy feeling that comes several times a day where i just cant stand to be alive sometimes and i just really need to hit something or scream or just do SOMETHING to release all this stress and anger. a cigarette would be nice. but i cant do that. because of fsmily. it sucks. i mean im 19. im my own person. im an adult, yes? then why the fuck do i have to suffer for the sake of others? goddamnit. this is my body. this is my life. i do whatever the hell i want with it. i am so sick of trying to change because it never works. im always let down by myself and others. im just not strong enough.i still have another fucking week and a half here in taiwan. it sucks. i just want to fucking leave now. i am goin insane!!!!! i need to get out. im so ancy right now i could punch a wall with my bare fist and not feel it. i just want to leave. now. or else my head is going to explode and im going to continue to imagine these itchy spots all over my body and i neurotically scratch the strangest parts of my body and shake and scream on the insade. i hate this ancy feeling. it comes way too often. i cant stand it. i just need to get the fuck out of here.

Add comment

View all posts

Matches: 14723 ... 906 | 907 | 908 | 909 | 910 | 911 | 912 | 913 | 914 | 915 ... Next Prev Last